Spirit Thoughts

On Misfortune…

Nothing is terrible. There are no victims. No one dies by accident… No one gets hurt by accident. This Truth does not excuse us from being responsive to another. Our only task is to bring compassion to every situation. At each stage, we must offer alchemy- not turning lead into gold, but rather fear in to faith. At the same time it must be true that we do not need to rescue anyone. No matter how grim or desperate the situation appears, each person/each situation is already in the arms of the Divine. Our responsibility is to present a higher perspective in hopes that this information can be applied to the evolution of those involved. If so, GREAT! If not, GREAT! We must be available but not attached. Perhaps this is what Jesus meant when he spoke of being in the world but not OF it. -SS

KUNDALINI & EVOLUTION

This teaching is from a class that I taught called Kundalini and Evolution. I believe that this is such an important topic because so many of us are waking up at once. It is my prayer that this teaching will help us all wake up more gracefully/consciously. It’s called Kundalini in America. 

When I was a young child perhaps 10 years old, I wrote in my journal, “There are little workmen inside my body building new highways to carry the extra love.”

Then, when I was 33, a wave of warm, liquid bliss Traveled up my spine and my reality changed Completely and permanently. Suddenly, I knew the answer to every question about the Universe… or it would be more accurate to say that no more questions existed. I stayed in a bliss so intense that I couldn’t walk or talk for weeks. Never having meditated or even heard of Kundalini people decided that I had experienced a stroke. I didn’t care. I was in bliss

Perhaps two months later I was so burned by the energy that I dropped out of the bliss and into a darkness so pervasive that I think I would have preferred to be dead. It was truly awful… I was so angry at myself. I felt that God had bothered to give me the answers to all the questions in the world and that I had somehow carelessly lost those answers. I had truly crashed and burned…

But… eventually, my body and psyche gradually reset itself. At first… I could walk but not as well as before. I could talk but not as well as before. I definitely couldn’t think a thought but I knew any answer that I needed. And a few months later I was new again. I was radically alive plugged in... full of awe. Everything I looked at was glistening, glowing… literally. I knew almost everyone’s history before they told me. Healing flowed from my heart and my hands… sometimes physical and sometimes emotional.

And, I saw patterns everywhere. Everything and everyone was related to everything and everyone else. I even saw threads of light connecting people and events. And, I saw colors in place of numbers and I worked math problems by color matching.

Friends often reported seeing me in several places at once. I later learned it is called bilocation. I could always tell them exactly what we had said or done, even though I didn’t remember being in two places at once. And, perhaps most fun of all, I literally felt orgasms in my heart and my throat. My body was truly alive at every possible level.

There are no words to capture these events but I know the truth of this because such events are always accompanied by such sweet love… such deep peace. All of this continues to be true forty years later. Some of these phenomena are in the background now… But always ready when I need them. But what never dims or goes away and even continues to grow is the Love.

Amazingly profound love...Love far beyond mere human logic. Divine Love that flows through me like a force of nature. It IS THE force of nature. Oneness is another word that describes this on-going state of being. Nothing is ever separate now. I am not separate from anyone or anything. I am the tree. I am the ocean. And I am not only the people who I love most dearly in my personal life… but I am also the so called stranger Who I see standing on the street as I drive by.

Most of the time, I reap the harvest of this sacred energy. There is profound peace beyond circumstance beyond anything that is going on in my life or in the world. There is profound love that never, ever goes away…No matter what. 

There is love beyond reason or justification… not because someone does something to earn that love but more because I am made of Love. Love is the animating source of me and I need to / have to let that Love flow or I will be electrocuted.There are also times when this bliss feels like too much… Times when the energy builds until I think I will explode. There are times when I feel electrocuted… as if my body doesn’t know how to carry this much voltage.

I remember one of those times of overwhelm. It was probably about eight years after the Kundalini first rose up my spine - this was when the doctors still thought I had had a stroke. One day in the midst of raising our 17 adopted/ guardianship children I ran out of my house, raised my arms to the sky crying tears of frustration. I let myself down to the ground and sobbed, “God, I need to know what is happening. I don’t understand why I am always on fire. Why is every bit of input into my brain magnified 1000 times? How can I possibly raise these children when their every emotion is running through my body, my mind, my heart?  

This much love is melting me down… melting down my nervous system. I need an answer NOW!” Finally, totally spent… I think I must have just surrendered…I returned to the house. As I walked in, my husband said, “There’s a letter for you.” Standing in the kitchen with children swirling all around me, I opened the letter and read... 

“Dear Donna, You don’t know me but I recognize you. I’ve seen you teach and I’ve seen you love your children. I want you to know that you are not sick. You have not had a stroke. You are experiencing a heightened state of consciousness which is called Kundalini. I want to help you understand that you represent the next stage of human evolution. Love, Barbara”

I was stunned. As if I were in the protected eye of a hurricane I stood totally silent 

in the midst of all the laughter and tears that seventeen children could produce. And so… my husband came and took my hand and led me back to the office and said, “Sit here and oh yes there was also a package for you.”

He brought it to me and since I was totally useless at that point, he opened the package for me and handed me a note from the box that said, “Donna, Here is a book written by your spiritual mother. You can understand it as your own spiritual autobiography.” I had no idea what she meant but I opened to a book-marked page where my friend, Sandra, had underlined 

a passage written by The Mother… Sri Aurobindo’s companion… The passage said, “There are little highway men 

inside my body building new highways to carry all this energy that is only Love.”

Wow. Hers was written in French but it was the exact same image that I had written in my journal when I was ten years old. How could that be possible? And yes, I did notice that both the letter and the book arrived while I was outside pleading with God to help me understand what was happening to me. 

So this is where you come in. 

You also have little workmen inside of you… building new highways inside you to carry the life force… The Love. And, like me, until this integrates you may not recognize the gift that you have been given. And, like me you may even think of it as a problem…You may call it being overly sensitive or irritable… even flashes of anger with emotional impulses too strong to control. You may be diagnosed with a physical illness or a mental illness… When, in fact, it is latent life force… Life force is waking up and driving out any blocks any emotions, or any beliefs which stand in its way. Do you understand that this energy that is running through your nervous system is sacred… that it is a blessing… that it is an honor… It is God / Goddess taking form through you? You know ours is not a culture that helps us understand this process of a body integrating with a spirit…of a body waking up… of a mind quickening. Kundalini. 

And this is not a culture that reinterprets our experience that we thought was terrifying or overwhelming or exhausting so that we suddenly realize that we are being blessed. This is definitely not a culture which tells its so-called hyperactive kids that they are simply running more voltage / more electricity than they know how to balance gracefully. And…This is not a culture that teaches us to meditate or dance when we are feeling over amped.I know that most of you will not experience the same degree of intensity that I did… partially because this was so rarely seen in America…  so little understood / honored. There was no one else around That I knew of when I traveled this path alone.

But now, so many more people are waking up at once. You can have community. You can have support. You can understand what is happening To your mind and body.You are being upgraded. Which leads me to my last point…There are degrees of intensity. Most people wake up more gradually, and more gently than I did. Many of you are in a stage where you have very strong energies and urges running through you. 

Life feels very extreme. Life as you have lived it is no longer enough to satisfy you, And yet you don’t know how to get to the next stage gracefully. At a certain point, your life seems to be unraveling. You notice that activities that once excited you no longer do. Foods that once seemed perfect no longer nourish you. Friends that seemed such a match no longer seem to get you. This is a time when old ways of being no longer apply.This is because you are in the midst of being Rewired...transformed—literally not just spiritually. It would be so easy if it were just spiritually. But it’s also mentally, emotionally, physically. Every brain function - Every hormone - Every cell Now has new rules. There are new highways being built to carry the extra love the extra life force the extra energy. These new highways are being built because you evolved… your consciousness changed… and therefore your very cellular structure has changed. 

Your instructions for being have changed. These new highways are appearing in your hearts in your physical brains in your digestive systems… You are literally being upgraded at every level.

Sri Aurobindo taught that Humans are not the final stage of evolution. Thank God for that. He taught that the design for divine humanity is pulling us into more complexity more simplicity more capacity and more divinity. Sri Aurobindo believed that humans are the conscious connection… the bridge between animal and divine consciousness. I don’t know if I agree with that. I sense that all living things Are expressions of different forms of Divine Consciousness. But I do understand that we humans know that we know… And that could be both the blessing and the curse. 

I do agree with The Mother and with Sri Aurobindo That we are designed to become Divine Humans —conscious humans and in order to allow that transformation we must let the old instructions die… the instructions for how to live and even how to be human. We must allow ourselves to receive those new instructions consciously so that we can become the bridge between heaven and earth.Did you know that in order to turn into a butterfly a caterpillar must lose all instructions for being a caterpillar? 

Alchemically, the caterpillar literally dissolves into a soup of all possibility. A caterpillar must surrender into being no thing before it can become some thing. And we humans must surrender into being no thing before we can become divine humans. We must surrender into being nothing. We must lose all instructions for being merely human before we can become an expression of All That Is. There is no higher honor and there is nothing more ordinary or inevitable. 

What a blessed time to be in a body…  a time when humanity must transform or perish. I am in awe. I am in gratitude… profound gratitude that you are choosing to transform… to become more of yourself with me. 

Thank you. Namaste. 

I bow to you. I salute the God in you. I salute the Goddess in you. 

We are so blessed to have come to do this together.